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​Our Deepest Fear

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
 

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.  

Your playing small does not serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to manifest to the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fears, our presence automatically liberates others.

- Marianne Wilkinson, recited by Nelson Mandela in 1994


 

I am a Fighter
 

The North wind shall blow

and we shall have snow.

What will the poor Robin do then?

Hang his head under his wing.

Poor thing! Poor thing!
 

I was born in a small house by a midwife and laid upon a small table in belief that I was dead. With a slight cough and a quiet cry, the bell had rung and the fight had begun. At a young age my parents migrated to America in search of a better life for our family. Times were hard. Both my mother and my father had to hold down two jobs to keep their six children fed, clothed, and sheltered. My parents were always my hero. My father tough me that, I was the ruler of my own destiny and only through perseverance would I succeed. My mother thought me something even more important, that is only through giving love can you earn love in return. Only now were my wings starting to develop.
 

Just as my wings were ready for its first flight, I was thrown from my nest. Before completing some of the roughest high schools in Brooklyn, I lost my greatest gift. My mother passed away from a horrifying car accident. With the ideals from my father and the loving memory of my mother, I fluttered through college and earned a B.B.A. in computer systems.

Just before completing college, I married my best friend, who has been there for me since the time of my mother’s death. My wings were certainly strong and I was able to soar through the sky. Oh, how proud my mother would have been to see me fly. I was now ready for my journey south with my spouse.
 

The flight south has posed many challenges. About one month after my spouse became pregnant, she had a miscarriage, and we lost one of life’s precious gifts. I held on to our dreams and kept flying south.
 

Two years later my first son was born. This was the edge I needed to win life’s battle. He gave me the strength I needed to continue the fight and more love and joy than I knew existed. Surly the flight south could not be all that bad. Within the next few years, two beautiful girls joined our family's corner. It’s been a long and trying flight, but we made it. Although I have won the first several rounds, the battle has not yet been won.
 

I am sure that life has many more trials for me. Now that my wings are strong, I can carry my family the way my parents carried me. I am sure I will win life’s battle. I am a fighter.

- Dereck Linburn Paul, 1995

 

Unified Field Theory

(An Essay & Theory in Active Development & Based in Observation of the Natural World)
 

Our biological network architectures, our technological network architectures, our history, our art, and our languages are the keys to understanding our universe.


Systems are everything.

Language encodes our world.

The state of matter does not matter. 

But the geometric architecture of the universe does.

 

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Dereck
A name of old Germanic origin, derived from the name Theodoric. Theodoric is derived from the elements “"þeud”, meaning people or folk, and “ric” meaning power or leader. Thus, Theodoric and, consequently, Dereck have been used to mean “leader of people” or “power of the tribe.”
 

William
A name of old Germanic origin derived from the name Wilhelm, which combines the words “will” - meaning will for action or desire and helm - meaning helmet or protection. Together, Willhem and its derivate William mean resolute protector or defender of the vulnerable.
 

Paul
A name of ancient Latin origin meaning “small” or “humble”. In the Bible, Paul was a disciple, later relaying the teachings of Jesus and preaching the gospel throughout the Roman Empire, establishing churches, and authoring books that became fundamental to the New Testament and the Christian Faith.

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